About Total Life Recovery
- Serving: 10 Years
- Charged: Drug Possesion
- Joined TLR: 2008
- Goals: To become a real estate agent and make sure every child has a home.
Hi, I'm Maile (my-lay) I'm from the Big Island of Hawaii and serving another 5-year sentence for drug possession. My parents were professional entertainers, so my brothers and I were either going from one huge party to another or left at home to fend for ourselves. I was convinced at an early age that "alcohol is for celebration," "drugs are exclusive to the V.I.P." and gambling was the sure fire way to fast cash. I grew up fast.
I was raped when I was 12 and dealt with this shameful secret through the reliable sedations of marijuana. I hurried to finish school, worked hard, joined every sport I could and made lots of friends so I'd have a place to go. I got caught up in dangerous relationships that brought nothing but chaos and violence. Whatever was left of me was consumed by confusion and I barely made it through graduation. I partied my way to California and started college. Two years in, I got into a reckless card accident and ended up paralyzed. I desperately prayed to God, promising him that if he healed me, I would never, ever take my legs for granted again. God delivered and I haven't kept still since.
I relapsed and my drug addiction turned into a life of high crime. I found myself in and out of jail. My life completely plummeted by 1998. I got pregnant and smoked cocaine. Unforgiveness stared me in the face when the doctor put my little girl in my arms and told me, "Sorry she didn't make it." My heart shattered into a million irreparable pieces while heroin and denial devoured me. Welcoming many overdoses, I silently prayed to never wake. Instead, God forgave and blessed me with two more children.
There was a time not too long ago when I settled for being a drug. I had no life skills, no concept of healthy relationships and used celebration as an excuse to get high. My sad reality was that I couldn't even care properly for my own family.
It is only through God's grace with the tremendous love and support of TLR that I can now celebrate my daughter's life. I had no idea how I was suppose to pull through all this, but God is faithful. He not only delivered my teenagers form a radical ice addiction and child molestation, but he also gave her back to me and healed me as well from 40 years of drug abuse.
The most remarkable thing about TLR is the kind outpour from the volunteers, counselors and mentors. They come from all walks of life and spend their days with us, invest their hearts in us. Their belief inme has taught me to discover a side of myself that I didn't even know I had a sided that my children now get to be blessed with.